Readers Write In #205: Sushant Singh Rajput: An innings that deserved a winning result

Posted on June 15, 2020


(by N Madhusudhan)

I woke up from my afternoon nap hearing the news of Sushant Singh Rajput’s death. It was not just shocking.It was just too bizarre to believe.It took a few hours to realize how it was really affecting me.Every time I thought of MS Dhoni, Sushant’s is the second face that still comes to mind.

I am not exactly a fan of Sushant Singh Rajput. I have not seen many of his films. But his performance in MS Dhoni: The Untold Story was bloody impressive. For the entire duration of the film, i did not think about the real Dhoni. Sushant created his own Dhoni and brought him alive on screen. I recalled his performances in PK and Kedarnath. He was an earnest actor.

I welled up when I watched flashes of his Film Companion interviews. The guy really comes across as someone struggling to express himself and craving for human connections. He says he enjoys acting because it gives him the opportunity of not having to put himself out there but hiding behind the characters he plays. To me he was always MS Dhoni. Like how Daniel Radcliffe will always be Harry Potter and Matthew Perry will always be Chandler Bing.

As the audience, we have the privilege of not having to know the person playing the character. I used to believe we worship our actors so much because of how deeply the characters they play on screen affect us.But when the person dies, why does it affect us so much? It feels like death of someone you are close to. What is this strange relationship we have with our actors?

I got to know from the news that he was undergoing treatment for clinical depression. There are millions of people on Twitter that had put out messages saying if you are in trouble, just call and talk to someone. Are things really that easy? Is it really fair on the guy? Imagine the kind of stress and weight he must of have carried to have made this decision. Can we even claim to understand his state of mind? I do not think any of us can.

Sushant has had quite an impressive filmography. He may not have done many films but has done enough good work to stay alive in the minds of people. He will continue to stay in my mind as another MS Dhoni. But in real life, Sushant deserved a better finish.